17th January 2016 - Hello, My Name is Conflicted

CRAP. I had a really long post here about being conflicted on choices. Now I have to start again. I think that's the universe's way of "keep it simple Donne" So I shall. I'm conflicted. I'm conflicted that I have always tried to be an advocate for natural therapies. I have prided myself on being educated on my own health issues, and dealing with them in a natural way first, and then call in the big guns second. But I am leaving this to science. For now. I want to concentrate on the surgery, see what we're dealing with and then I want to use science to treat it afterwards and nature to heal what science hurts. My conflict is that I worry that those who live a true natural life, may scoff at my choice. I also feel that the medical experts may scoff at natural support I ask about and suggest. My conflict is that I'm trying to please those whose opinions I respect, and I'm more concerned with that, than my own peace of mind. I had a brilliant chat today with a very wise woman. When I related a story to her (that had nothing to do with this) about a situation that was bothering me that was not my own, her words to me were "And that's your problem because?" And she's right. My old "people pleasing" issues are well and truly at the forefront here. (LOL those closest too me will be chuckling and saying "Donna, they never left") So I need to stick to what I want to do. That will give me peace and the strength to do this.

"You are doomed to make choices. This is life's greatest paradox."
Wayne Dyer