Tick Tock

"How did it get so late so soon? Its night before its afternoon. December is here before its June. My goodness how the time has flewn. How did it get so late so soon?" Dr. Seuss

Two more sleeps and it's back to oncology for Round 3 of 8 Chemo treatments. The last treatment has certainly been tough, and I've been struggling with asthma this week. It's being watched closely so hopefully that will resolve soon. My weight has come back a bit as well, so that's keeping everyone happy. 

The 20 days waiting in between treatments, is like a cross between running a marathon and then trying to stop a speeding train. And I'm Superwoman, not Superman! I spend 5 - 6 days wishing for time to pass. Waiting for the initial side effects to lessen. Those days are taken up of meds, trying to eat, trying to drink copious amounts of water to wash away the chemo, temperature taking, sleeping, taking more meds, generally an appointment with at least one Doctor. Then I get to day 5 or 6 and the fog starts to lift, and I start to live and move outside of the four walls and not just go between the bed and the couch. I start to enjoy the days a little more. The middle week is like the time after a bad flu, and you're exhausted, and start to eat a little better, willing the legs to walk a little faster and smile a little more. Then it's the down hill run to day 21 and you start to wish to hold back time. 

Sometimes it feels like I'm sitting still and the world is turning without me and I just sit here and mark time.

But then during these times that I spend waiting or wishing, lovely things happen. This week was Mother's Day, so I got to mark my first "Grandmother's Day" and had lovely cuddles with my favourite babies. 

I also received a lovely surprise, while running a competition on our Facebook Horse page. We asked members to nominate their Mum or Mum type person who has been there for them, doing the hard yards at the horsey shows and all the things that go with having horsey kids. Well after the competition finished, there was a post put on our page for me, by a very lovely lady. This is what she wrote.

"Now for a special message for one of our Admins - Donna Fischer, from a very beautiful Mum herself, Melissa Kattenberg

OUR horsey Mumma... 
This lady doesn't ride much, but has spent so much time around horses supporting others. She commits to things wholeheartedly and never backs down from a fight.
When she sees our horse community in need, she doesn't sit on her hands, she acts - creating this very page and initiating a local trail riding club are a few things you may know about.
What you may not know is that this strong, amazing woman will message me wherever I am in the world to give me strength, courage and confidence when mine is failing.
She is fighting the biggest battle she will ever face at the moment and I'm in her corner.
Donna Fischer is a Superhero Horsey Mum to us all and I'm truly grateful and honoured to call her my friend ♡"

So even though, I have some crappy times, and time seems to be both my enemy and my friend, I can still find some really awesome moments within these times, and I am truly blessed.